A little more time

As of today, our agency has told us that they will not be removing Violet from our home and placing her in private foster care.  This is a huge answer to prayer! She is going to stay with us for a few more weeks until her biological father makes the decision to get DCF involved OR proceed with adoption.  There really is no other choice for him. I really feel for this guy, he just found out about the baby and really feels like he would be letting her down by giving her up.  Yikes...adoption is so messy.

I keep thinking about how much adoption really costs, for everyone involved.  It costs a lot of money, time, emotional pain....its just a high price to pay for biological and adoptive parents, and for the child.  So why bother when its all so painful and risky? I keep asking myself why this has to be so difficult, and then I think about my own adoption as a child of God.  I guess it cost Jesus a lot to adopt us, he gave up all of his rights to become like us and suffer on our behalf.  Because of that, we get to be called children of God.  Not that this situation can even compare to that, but it does help me to move from the "God must hate me, that's why He is doing this to me" state of mind to an understanding that I have a Savior who has a pretty good idea of how much adoption hurts and how much potential joy it can bring.

There are going to be many days in the next few weeks when I lose sight of this. Thankfully, I have so many people in my life who remind me of what is here and now, and what is just speculation.