Prayers for Violet

At this point it would be safe to say, we need all hands on deck when it comes to praying for this little one!  It seems that her biological father does, in fact, want to parent her.  While his situation makes it impossible for him to care for her for quite some time, it seems like he would like her placed in foster care until he can get his life together.  Our agency is considering removing Violet from our care and placing her in private foster care (that we pay for!) until they can figure out if he will eventually give in or if DCF has to be notified to take the baby.  So here are our options:

1. Terminate the adoption process when the baby is removed from our home
2. Let her go to private foster care an see how this pans out (very expensive on our end)
3. Tell our agency we would be happy to keep her as long as possible, and even try to get DCF certified to be her foster parents until dad figures his life out or she becomes eligible for adoption, but refuse to pay for private foster care.

At this point, we are leaning towards option #3. Mostly because we would rather switch gears and become foster parents than remain as hopeful adoptive parents, when it just may not be realistic.  We are also not sure how we could pay for the adoption if we are paying for her foster care for up to 6 months or so.  It would be so difficult to make the choice to stop paying foster care and let DCF take over, and why should we have to be the ones to make that awful decision?  We'd be thrilled to be her foster parents, but we don't want to be the desperate adoptive parents, if this is going to drag on forever. 

I'm keeping this entry somewhat factual, mainly to help prevent having to tell the story over and over.  Its just easier to tell it this way.  I also want to give my support system specific things they can pray for, and I feel like its important that people know what we are all going through.  Finally, its pretty hard for me to say exactly how I feel because I range somewhere between feeling a peace and seeing God's hand at work, and a desire to take all my diner plates outside and smash them against the pine trees.  See? Not helpful.  This is why I need all of you to pray, pray, pray.  Little Violet and all of my dinner plates depend your prayers!